Totally messed up my site tonight. I went all perfectionist and changed something and saved it before checking it was ok, bugger. My last layout (3 days old) is totally duffed. Oh well, thats life.
Been reading grouphug.us again. Addicted. Some things are quite scary.
Northern Lights tonight. Absolutely gorgeous. I'll get a pic up as soon as I can be bothered.
I've been thinking more and more about my next boyfriend. It's sad. After having Paul (1 1/2 yrs, love of my life. We still love each other, its just all wrong) for so long I just want someone to give me better memories, but really I only want Paul. I wish we worked. But I know that God has someone lined up for me. I think I am mad about a geek- Shady Pete. He is so nice, like proper NICE. Not sexy, not cocky, not rude just sooooo nice. And I'm not attracted to him in a physical way as much as I am in an emotional way. He's just a total gent. I'd love to be best friends with him, but I think I want more than that. I sometimes do this- make myself think I like people I don't really, but i'm not sure now. I've only addmitted it to myself this week and since then I haven't seen him. I hope I don't see him and go....ugh. And then totally lose all interest in him. He is so great. I don't know why he is called shady Pete.
I want to tell you all that I am a true loner. I like to be by myself but also find a great night to be out meeting people and having a laugh. I have a problem with friends. No one is like me, I like kickboxing, don't like to get wasted and have crazy ideas that make people go EH?? My friends get on my nerves at school- 'ooh, I'm so spotty, my bum is so big. Oh I asked him to get off with me so we're meeting on sat blah blah etc. Getting off by the way means snogging, kissing...whatever you like to call it. Anyway, who the hell ASKS to get off with someone.....fair enough maybe first year (Age 12 school yr in Scottie land) when you don't know a thing but now??? We're bloody 16 and they still need to text each other and ask! People are so immature, I hate them. I made the school website and they all seem to think it's a geeky thing-web design that is. But then they go on the internet and chat all night. AH, get a grip- you think i'm sad???? At least I ain't getting chatted up by 50 yr olds pretending to be 16! I hate the way girls are, all my mates used to be boys but then we all had to get hormones didn't we? Now anytime I like a guy I think I fancy them.
I want to learn the insides out of Web design. It's all I want. That a husband and kids. I looked up in our school careers library today and the only decent course I could find was all the way down in manchester! There is nooooo way I am going to ENGLAND (no offence to any English people, it's just in my blood to hate you).
I want to leave school now and do computing. Is there anyway I could skip my highers (exams done at 16 & 17) and go straight on to do a Webmasters course????? Maybe if I get hosted and then make a fabo site with the latest stuff (once I get my head round it all) and then send it off to them?? I just hate school! I hate learning stuff I don't want to know! I want to move out and be a grown up!!!! *Throws 3 yr old style tantrum*
Och well, a canna sell the cou an sup the milk.
Awa wi blethering, gae ti bed wi the lamb an rise wi the laverock. (Ha ha, I love being Scottish)